Barbara Roberts talks about Mysteries of Iniquity, Marriage/ABUSE/Divorce and the Bible

My sister in Christ, Tye, from Out Of Gate, recorded this video of me in late 2019.

The first words are important to listen to, so I’m starting the video right from the beginning.

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How and why I changed my mind on one thing I wrote in my book

P.S. Tye initiated this interview. I did not solicit it. I am a writer; I prefer to take time editing my written words. Video and audio are not my thing. I am very grateful to Tye for how she used music, other video clips and written-word overlays in the video.

SRA survivor testimony of Toos Nijenhuis

TRIGGER WARNING: This testimony contains depictions that are reminiscent of Satanic Ritual Abuse and may trigger survivors and disturb most people. Watch under your own responsibility.

Testimony of Toos Nijenhuis

Toos (from the family Nijenhuis) is a 54 year old Dutch lady who testifies that she was ritually raped, tortured & trafficked from age 4 to 12 by her parents, grandparents, family doctor, Freemasons, Catholic clergy, Protestant clergy, and members of Royal Families.

Toos described various acts of sexual abuse and torture, as well as being made to partake in human hunting games at castles all over Europe: Netherlands, Belgium, Switzerland, England, Wales and Scotland.

She witnessed children being killed. She was made to participate in cannibalism.

The list of perpetrator names given by Toos included high members of royalty & church — Prince Philip, Lord Moundbatten, Pope John Paul II, Cardinal Alfrink, Prince Bernhard, Menachem Mendel Schneerson,

If you know Jesus as your Lord and Saviour, please be brave and ask God to help you be vigilant and discerning so you do not succumb to the strong delusion.

Jesus can take the sting out

Click here if you want to learn more about the strong delusion.

Cheryl Beck’s testimony of Luciferian ritual abuse and child trafficking

Cheryl Beck is one of many survivors of Luciferian ritual abuse who have become Christians and testified about their experiences.

Cheryl was told the Gospel of Jesus Christ before she was sprinkle baptized in a Protestant church, and believing, received Jesus as her Lord and Savior at age two.

This post features several different interviews with Cheryl.

Luciferians use torture-based mind control (TBMC) on children and adults. If you don’t yet know about this stuff, brace yourself.

I urge you to listen and learn. I urge everyone of good will to become informed. By becoming informed you can help other people wake up.

If you are a sincere follower of Jesus Christ I urge you to learn about this heinous evil so you can believe, support and pray for the victims. Let us pray that Jesus will continue to shine light on the dark and evil schemes of those who have assented to the evil. Let us pray that God will prevent and convict and bring justice to the perpetrators.

Cheryl appeals to Christians

Please, Christian brothers and sisters, we are at Critical Mass with the depths of evils being exposed around the world! Christians should be the First Responders to traumatized, hurting people, because we have all the gifts of the Holy Spirit available to us!

Instead, it has been my experience as an SRA survivor, to be shut out of my Church Family because they wanted their Comfortable, Bless ME Jesus, Happy Place not to be rattled by the horrors I was facing in suddenly being flooded by the memories of my childhood. I was a Worship Leader, Sunday School teacher, nurse on call to everyone, and so on…, but the Pastors and elders turned on me so viciously, I had to leave and nobody even tried to understand my plight.

Over 200 church “Family” members left me absolutely alone, started horrible rumors about me in our small town, and have shunned me still standing in that wrong judgment for 20 yrs.

I have STILL tried to warn them of pedophiles, satanists, and witches in the congregation through the years, and they would not hear. Now they are fully immersed in Luciferian music and teachings, and it’s so sad.

Jesus redeemed us and gave us such profound authority through His shed blood for such a time as this! Yet, so many refuse to know the Truth and engage the enemy and save lives.

We need First Responders and Rescuers, not ostriches with their heads in the sand.

comment by Cheryl at my post “Why is the church so slow at responding rightly to the epidemic of abuse?”

Interviews with Cheryl Beck

None of these interviews have disturbing images of heinous abuse, but Cheryl does describe some horrific things that Luciferians do to their victims. Some of the links go to YouTube. (If you aren’t logged in to YouTube you will be asked to sign in to verify your age when you click on the link.) Some of the links begin mid-point in the video, the point at which the interview with Cheryl begins.

If you find it painful to hear a testimony from a survivor of Torture-Based Mind-Control, Jesus can take the sting out.

Northwest Liberty News first interview with Cheryl Beck

Watch/listen by clicking this^ link. Or view it on YouTube.
Northwest Liberty News are planning more interviews with Cheryl.

Topics covered: child trafficking, what Luciferians believe, Luciferian practices, blood rituals, rape & torture of children, ‘expendable children’, bloodlines, gematria. Nazis, Project OFTEN, OSS transition to CIA, MKUltra. Trauma used to induce dissociation in children, hypnotising (scripting) the dissociated child to create & program alters. Different roles given to people in the cult. How the cult rebuilds programming when it breaks down. Disney and Hollywood. Trophy jewellery and red shoes. Cheryl’s father designed a Luciferian altar for the ‘Lutheran’ church which he took his family to. The CIA was unsuccessful in using virtual-reality-tech to induce Cheryl to believe in aliens. Demonic takeover of persons: black eyes (no whites, no coloured iris, ‘reptilian eyes’. The name of Jesus overpowers demons.

Field McConnell’s first interview with Cheryl Beck

Topics covered: some of the above, plus more on Cheryl’s childhood. The Lutheran church her family went to which was a front for Luciferians. How she accepted Jesus when she was two. The breeding of children for trafficking. Keeping children in cages underground. The power of Jesus over Luciferians and demons. Using the name of Jesus to command the demons.

Field McConnell’s second interview with Cheryl Beck

Topics covered include Luciferian practices around Halloween/Samhein. The death of G.H.W. Bush (~29:00). Blood sacrifices where the Luciferians conjur demons (1:11:30). Cheryl says: “mainline churches are heavily involved” (47:00). She outlines how Christians can pray and stand in the gap (50:50) – pray by repenting and asking forgiveness for not knowing about the work of the cult; ask the Lord to free the children.

Victuras Libertas interview with Cheryl Beck.

Topics covered include some of the above, but more detail given on some parts of Cheryl’s life. You will see and hear Jim and Angie, husband and wife, both Christians, compassionately talking to and interviewing Cheryl.

FACT: Heinous abuse IS being done by Luciferians / child traffickers / pedophiles / global crime cartel / intelligence agencies / many ‘c’hristian leaders. It is a business plan. A very lucrative business plan.

Drawings by Cheryl Beck

Click here to see Cheryl’s drawings: her memories being tortured and programmed.

Bio of Cheryl Hersha

True to known programming breakdown, Cheryl Hersha and her sister Lynn began remembering a sinister and evil upbringing in 1996, as memories and alters holding memories began to surface. The more they talked to each other, the more they remembered. Cheryl is now fully integrated and healed from the psychological, emotional and spiritual wounds from the first traumatic 18 yrs of her life. However, the physical damage has left her permanently disabled and 7 years past her prognosis with a rare neurological disorder.

Cheryl is a born-again Christian, was married for 28 years, is a mother of four adult children, and is now a forcibly retired (disabled) RN, who lives in the Southwest USA. Cheryl was active in the survivor communities of both MKUltra and Satanic Ritual Abuse, until her health plummeted. She has written under her pen name, C.A.Beck, for decades.

Cheryl has been compelled to speak out once again “for the innocents who cannot speak”, since Wikileaks broke the Pedogate story; the same life she lived in the 1960s and 70s, when trafficked by both her Family and the CIA.

Cheryl Beck is also know as Cheryl Hersha Beck. Due to security-sensitive careers that some of her children have, she regrets she cannot show her face for interviews, as requested by their employers.

—adapted from the description at the Victuras Libertas interview of Cheryl

For further reading and viewing

Secret Weapons: Two Sisters’ Terrifying True Story of Sex, Spies and Sabotage — Kindle book co-authored by Cheryl ‘Hersha’ Beck, Lynn ‘Hersha’ (Cheryl’s sister), Dale Griffis and Ted Schwarz. You might be able to get this e-book for free if you ask you local library.

Cheryl Beck’s YouTube channel: Playlist of interviews with Cheryl

Drawings by other SRA survivors — Carole Rutz, Keely S Dorran, and Lynn Schirmer. Also poems, letters, paintings, drawings and photos by survivors presented to a United Nations Commission on the Status of Women panel in 2004.

Victuras Libertas YouTube channel: Playlist on Human Trafficking and Satanic Ritual Abuse

Follow Cheryl Beck on twitter: @CABeck1961

Why is the church so slow at responding rightly to the epidemic of abuse?

I see ‘c’hristian organisations:

  • abusing vulnerable people in the pews
  • abusing church attenders who blow the whistle on abusers
  • dragging their feet when it comes to responding justly to victims and  preventing further abuse

I see many leaders in the ‘c’hurch using weasel words, evasion, obfuscation, lies and half truths, virtue signalling. I see them breaking promises and focusing on their own image-management.

Why is the ‘c’hurch so slow at responding rightly to the epidemic of abuse?

  • Is it a lack of education or training?
  • Wrong teaching by church leaders?
  • Wrong doctrine?

Yes, those things are part of the problem. But there is a deeper reason. The rot goes deeper. The mystery of iniquity goes deeper.

Most / All Christian denominations and organisations have been infiltrated by evildoers. The corruption and deception is far deeper than many Christians realise.

Evildoers who masquerade as Christians have mastered the art of wearing sheep’s or shepherd’s clothing.

They have chosen to grossly indulge in the lusts of the flesh when Satan offered them those pleasures and they chose to accept his offer. They have chosen to enjoy the gifts that Satan offers them: wealth and power to intimidate and control other people.

By their choice to keep on suppressing their conscience they are (have become) psychopaths.

The Bible calls psychopaths—children of the devil, sons of Belial.

Psychopaths are human agents in a designed scheme that is masterminded by Satan/Lucifer.

The mystery of iniquity is masterminded by Satan.

In subsequent posts I will be featuring testimonies from people who have suffered extreme abuse from evildoers. Many of the testimonies will be from professing Christians. Some will be from survivors of Torture Based Mind Control, Child Trafficking, Satanic Ritual Abuse. Some will be from whistle-blowers who are advocating for the survivors.

The devil is Satan… otherwise known as Lucifer.

How can we be sure that Lucifer is Satan? Here’s an article which will take you only a minute or two to read. It sets out what the Bible says about Lucifer: Is Lucifer Satan? 

I write the word Satan with a capital S because I know he is a formidable enemy. Writing his name in the lower case does not make him any less dangerous: it only comforts the timid sheep who flinch from the reality of how formidable and cunning and crafty Satan is.

Lucifer is not God. Lucifer never was God. Lucifer never will be God.

He is only a created being— one of the many angelic beings which God created. Lucifer in his pride wanted to be revered as God.

Lucifer was, is, and will always be a created being

God created the heavens (the cosmos), the earth, all the angelic beings, all the human beings, the animals, the plants and the microorganisms. (Genesis 1)

Lucifer appears to have been one of the archangels.  But in his pride Lucifer intransigently set himself in rebellion against God.  God cast Lucifer out of heaven. It was a just and right consequence for an archangel who thinks he is God. Lucifer brought his perdition on himself. 

That’s the story of Lucifer the fallen angel. In the Bible and in everyday speech we call him Satan, the devil, the evil one, the adversary, the father of lies.

Satan is crafty and devious, cunning, beguiling. He weaves webs of lies and deception. He puts on and takes off multiple masks. He switches and adapts his masks to whatever he thinks will best work to entrap people – to suck them in and blind them so they end up with him in the Lake of Fire.

Satan can be intimidating, confusing, domineering, scornful, nice as pie, disrespectful, generous, punitive, ingratiating, arrogant, obsequious, terrifying, bewitching, glamorous, a towering inferno, humble, sympathetic, stony, foul mouthed, soft as butter, pitiful, distracting, empathetic, enticing, obscure, exciting, charismatic, mysterious, stealthy, angelic, covert, in your face, munificent, malignant, benevolent, nefarious, hurtful, helpful, cruel, malicious, vindictive, — anything and everything apart from being consistently HONEST and TRUE and TRUSTWORTHY in both word and deed.

God is honest, true, trustworthy, righteous, just, merciful, loving and forgiving to all who in humility and honesty seek him, turn from their sins, and trust in his promises.

Evildoers have infiltrated and captured all the major institutions of society.  I encourage you to watch this video by Dr Katherine Horton. She explains how evildoers capture organisations and institutions in society.  The link takes you to part 4 of her series Fighting Psychopathic Systems.

The Nazi mindset and methods are alive and well and thriving in the world. They have developed much more sophisticated methods than they were using during the second world war. What they’ve been doing has been covered up for a long time, but it is being exposed. More and more victims are recovering their memories. They are sharing their testimonies on social media because the mainstream media is infiltrated by the evildoers.

Professing Christians need to wake up and pay attention. Otherwise their profession of Christ is lukewarm and shallow. What does God do with lukewarm believers? He spews them out of his mouth (Rev. 3:16 — read it for yourself).

To folks who do not know Jesus but are courageously standing against the global network of evildoers:  Thank-you for standing up against the pedo degenerates who are serving the plan that is masterminded by Satan. Thank you for exposing and denouncing the evildoers. I wish more Christians would do what you are doing!  I hope each and every one of you comes to know Jesus Christ personally as your Lord and Saviour.

If you know Jesus as your Lord and Savior, please be brave and ask God to help you be vigilant and discerning so you do not succumb to the strong delusion.

Why I talk about the mystery of iniquity and the strong delusion.


Further reading

Church Pedophiles & Child Sex Trafficking Nests Intersect by The Thousands — from Corey’s Digs. The article focuses only on the USA, but what Corey is describing seems to be consistent with what is going on in the rest of the world.

The mystery of iniquity and the strong delusion are biblical terms

“For the mystery of that iniquity does he already work, which only locks until it is taken out of the way.” (2 Thessalonians 2:7)

How can we understand this? I do not know. But I know it is something to deeply ponder.

Let us read it in context. 2 Thessalonians 2:3-17 (link) —

Let no man deceive you by any means. For the Lord comes not unless there come a departing first and that sinful man be revealed – the son of perdition, who is an adversary, and is exalted above all that is called God or that is worshipped, so that he shall sit as God in the temple of God and show himself as God.

Do you not remember that when I was still with you, I told you these things? And now you know what withholds, so that he may be manifest at his time. For the mystery of that iniquity does he already work, which only locks until it is taken out of the way. And then shall that wicked one be exposed, whom the Lord will consume with the Spirit of his mouth, and will destroy with the appearance of his coming – namely him whose coming is by the working of Satan, with all lying power, signs, and wonders, and in all the deceptiveness of unrighteousness among those who are perishing. They perish because they would not receive the love of the truth, so that they might have been saved. And therefore God will send them strong delusion, so that they will believe lies; so that all may be judged who did not believe the truth, but had pleasure in unrighteousness.

But we are bound to give thanks always to God for you, brethren beloved of the Lord, because God has from the beginning chosen you for salvation, through sanctifying by the Spirit and through believing the truth, to which he called you by our gospel, to obtain the glory that comes of our Lord Jesus Christ. Therefore, brethren, stand fast. And keep the ordinances that you have been taught, whether it was by our preaching or by epistle.

May our Lord Jesus Christ himself, and God our Father who has loved us, and has given us everlasting consolation and good hope through grace, comfort your hearts and establish you in all doctrine and good-doing.

Now I will repeat verses 3-12, showing some words in bold.

Let no man deceive you by any means. For the Lord comes not unless there come a departing first and that sinful man be revealed – the son of perdition, who is an adversary, and is exalted above all that is called God or that is worshipped, so that he shall sit as God in the temple of God and show himself as God.

And now you know what withholds, so that he may be manifest at his time. For the mystery of that iniquity does he already work, which only locks until it is taken out of the way. And then shall that wicked one be exposed, whom the Lord will consume with the Spirit of his mouth, and will destroy with the appearance of his coming – namely him whose coming is by the working of Satan, with all lying power, signs, and wonders, 10 and in all the deceptiveness of unrighteousness among those who are perishing. They perish because they would not receive the love of the truth, so that they might have been saved. 11 And therefore God will send them strong delusion, so that they will believe lies; 12 so that all may be judged who did not believe the truth, but had pleasure in unrighteousness.

The strong delusion

Notice this: the one who sends the strong delusion is God (verse 11). God allows and ordains that all who will not receive the love of the truth will be strongly deluded by the deceptions of the evil one.

The evil and deception that is in this world is beyond the understanding of any one of us as individual human beings.

Each of us as individual human beings, and all of us collectively, cannot comprehend or plumb the depth of evil in this world.

It would be hubris to think that as mere human beings we can discern all the deceptions of the evil one. While I urge each and every one of us to strive to discern and see through the deception, we as human beings cannot solve the problem of evil. But God understands. God is across it all. And God offers us a way out. He came into this world as a man and bore in his own flesh the punishment for all evildoing. He did this out of love.

God takes no pleasure in the death of the wicked

“God takes no pleasure in the death of the wicked.” (Exekiel 18:23, click here to read it in context)

“No one who believes in him [Jesus] will perish, but will have eternal life. For God so loves the world, that he has given his only Son, so that none who believe in him should perish, but should have everlasting life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but so that the world through him could be saved. Whoever believes on him shall not be condemned. But whoever does not believe is condemned already, because he does not believe in the name of the only Son of God. And this is the condemnation: that light has come into the world, and men loved darkness more than light, because their deeds were evil.” (John 3:15-19, click here to read it in context)

Jesus said: “Heaven and earth shall perish, but my words will abide.” (Matthew 24:35)

“The Lord is not slack to fulfil his promise, as some count slackness, but is patient toward us, and would have no one lost, but would receive all to repentance. Nevertheless, the day of the Lord will come as a thief in the night, in which day the heavens shall perish with terrible noise, and the elements shall melt with heat, and the earth with the works that are in it shall burn.
If all these things will perish, what manner of persons ought you to be in holy living and godliness, looking for and hasting unto the coming of the day of God, in which the heavens shall perish with fire and the elements shall be consumed with heat? Nevertheless, we look for a new heaven and a new earth according to his promise, wherein righteousness dwells.” (2 Peter 3:9-13)

Jesus said, “My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me, and I give to them eternal life. And they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand. My Father who gave them to me is greater than all, and no one is able to take them out of my Father’s hand.” (John 10:27-29)


Bible versions used in this post

New Testament: William Tyndale’s translation gently updated in the New Matthew Bible (NMB). Old Testament: Holman Christian Standard Bible (HCSB)

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My thoughts on Q

I’m using this video as my departure point — Q: The Plan to Save the world.

Q has done good by helping people expand their thinking. Q’s diagnosis of the problem is okay up to a point, but it doesn’t get to the root.

When there are faults or shortfalls in a diagnosis, the treatment plan will probably be inadequate. The treatment may mitigate some of the problem and reduce some of the suffering, but it won’t eradicate the problem and bring complete healing.

That video about Q says: “We realise that the problem was never capitalism or socialism, democrat or republican, black or white, muslim or Christian. We know it was just very powerful criminals who have too much power.”

It’s a faulty diagnosis because

  • it falls short
  • it implies that all religions are equally true
  • it casts the elite criminals as the enemy: “the greatest force of evil the world has ever known”.

Yes, there ARE very wealthy elite criminals who for generations have been enemies of ordinary people.

But the Bible says the real enemy, the one at the top of the hierarchy, is Satan: the fallen angel Lucifer.

The Bible refers to Satan as the adversary, the father of lies, the evil one. Satan is a spiritual being created by God. He is NOT as powerful as God. He is destined for the lake of fire.

The angel Lucifer rebelled against God and was cast out of heaven. He controls a hierarchy of fallen angels (aka demons) who fell with him when he was cast out.

Satan controls human beings who have given their souls to him. He also influences every human being in this world, some more than others. He does his best to blind, confuse and mislead us. And harm us.

Some human beings have been systematically tortured to make them into mind-controlled slaves for the use of the elite criminals. This is done by Trauma Based Mind Control (TBMC). The CIA’s MK-Ultra program is a form of trauma based mind control.

It appears that the elite criminals have given their souls to Satan. They are what the Bible calls reprobate.

I say therefore, and testify in the Lord, that henceforth you must not walk like other Gentiles walk, in vanity of their mind, blinded in their understanding, being alienated from the life that is in God, through the ignorance that is in them because of the blindness of their hearts; who, being past repentance, have given themselves over to wantonness, to work all manner of uncleanness, even with greediness.

Ephesians 4:17-19

Past repentance = reprobate. Here are some reprobates in the Bible: Judas, Esau, Pharaoh, the priest Eli and his sons Hophni and Phineas.

But has every MK-Ultra slave chosen to give his or her soul to Satan? To what degree has each of those slaves had a choice? Moot point.

‘Bounded choice’ refers to having a range of choices but all of the options are dangerous and will produce harm: harm to others or harm to yourself or both.

Luciferian bounded choice: Commit crimes at the behest of those who have power over you, or refuse to commit the crimes and get tortured.

Another example of bounded choice: Refuse to hurt or kill a child, and other people will hurt and kill the child…they will make sure the child suffers more pain and fear than if you had done the crimes to the child.

Factor in the dissociation that comes from Trauma Based Mind Control. Dissociated parts (alters) may or may not remember what other parts of the person have done.

Some victims of Trauma Based Mind Control have come to faith in Jesus Christ. This is the work of God. To set free the captives.

I am well aware that the institutional churches have been infiltrated by evildoers. Many or most or all institutions that call themselves churches have been deep captured by the cartel. (If you want to know what I mean by ‘deep capture’ watch Dr Katherine Horton’s video series System Analysis Basics.)

I follow the Bible. I do not have much respect for the institutional churches. I distrust many church leaders. I know that some church leaders are psychopaths and many others are blind to the presence of the wolves among them.

That video about Q says we have always accepted the turmoil and suffering in the world as “just human nature, and simply the way the world works, something inevitable, and due to the weaknesses of human nature that drives human actions.” It oversimplifies the problem and flatters us by saying: “We are not criminals. It is not in our nature to fight and be racist. It is not in our nature to rob from others.”

In contrast, the Bible says that ever since the Fall every human being (other than Jesus) has been born with a sin nature—a bias towards doing the wrong thing.

We may not all have committed crimes. But we have all sinned.

“For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.” (Romans 3:23) Click here to read it in context.

The Bible says that the natural human is spiritually dead and under the wrath of God; but God has provided a remedy: salvation by faith in Jesus Christ.

There is no salvation for Satan and the demons. There IS salvation for all human beings who repent and believe by faith in Jesus.

If you want to know more about salvation by faith in Jesus Christ, click here. And here.

If you want to know more about how Jesus can heal the broken hearted, click here.

Jesus will come again to judge the world. He will pour out His wrath on the evildoers. “Vengeance is mine, says the Lord.” (Romans 12:19)

Jesus is the Way the Truth and the Life.

Donald Trump and his allies may be able to partly put the brakes on some elite criminals and get some of them jailed. But the Pentagon and Donald Trump are not the Messiah.

What is the likelihood that at least some of the senior people in the Pentagon are psychopaths? Maybe they are not part of the elite cabal, but systems analysis tells us that psychopaths often rise to the top in large organisations. (see System Analysis Basics)

Can we really believe that there are no psychopaths in high positions in US Military Intelligence? Or in any military organisation?

Power corrupts. Human beings who possess power tend to become corrupt. Large organisations become corrupt because psychopaths work their way to the top of the organisation.

Power corrupts your perception of the truth and your sense of right and wrong so you lose your compass.

Jeffrey Epstein was in prison when he died or was disappeared. No prison officers have been sacked for dereliction of duty. The head of that prison ought to have been fired. So far as I am aware, Trump and Attorney General Barr haven’t done anything to prosecute the people who are responsible for Epstein’s death or disappearance.

Does Q ever point to let alone honour the real victims who have been trying to expose child sex trafficking for years?

Jesus can take the sting out

Balm in Gilead

To know about the depths of evil can be overwhelming. When I hear victims testify about the horrible things that the Luciferians did to them, I have sometimes felt overwhelmed.

You may know that I am a born again Christian. I know Jesus as my Lord and Saviour. I did not in any way seek for Jesus. I hated Jesus. I thought Christianity was a load of bollocks. But God revealed to me the truth that Jesus is God and He loves me.

It took me quite a while to recalibrate after I met Jesus.

When I feel overwhelmed by hearing accounts of what the evildoers (especially the Luciferians) do to their victims, I ask Jesus to take the sting out. 

I pray to Jesus. Knowing Him as my Lord and Saviour, I utter in spoken words or say in my mind:

“Dear Lord –  my mind, my heart, my soul cannot bear this stuff. I don’t want to block out this stuff by going into amnesia. I want to remember the facts of it, but my mind can’t bear the pain and horror. You know the pain and horror. You bore it all on the Cross. Please take the sting out so my mind can remember the facts without my heart being whited-out by the abominations that evildoers do.”

My human frail mind cannot bear the sting: it is too overwhelming to think with my heart and soul, empathetically, with and for the victims of these evildoers.

But Jesus can and has borne the sting—He bore it on the Cross. He willingly suffered the wrath of God for all sins that human beings have and will ever commit.

He can and He does take away the sting so that I can remember and think about the evil without being overwhelmed by it.

This is my experience. This is my testimony.


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