Separation from my body to escape suffering – by Gary Pfeifer

“Fight, Flight, Freeze, Fawn, Feign, Flirt” — these are some of the ways recipients of abuse might respond to their abusers.  In his post Separation from my body to escape suffering, Gary Pfeifer talks about this.

Here are the first two paragraphs of Gary’s post:

These days, self-integrity is really important to me. I will sacrifice comfort, convenience and opportunity to retain and regain my self-integrity. I understand the consequence of a divided mind – weighing me down with internal conflicts and the energy required to keep track of all the inconsistencies and when to allow or forbid each one.

As a child, i had no understanding of my self-integrity or its value. I was motivated by the experience of the moment. I cared about minimizing suffering and maximizing enjoyment. This meant mentally separating from my body to minimise the suffering of abuse. As the abuse included my head, i also separated from my head, my own face, and restricted my personal space to a small volume within my skull. I created an alternative reality in there to compensate for the loss of my connection to my physical reality. A place to hang out in my mind.

To read the full post, click here.

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SRA survivor testimony of Toos Nijenhuis

A 54 year old Dutch lady testifies that she was ritually raped, tortured & trafficked from age 4 to 12 by her parents, grandparents, family doctor, Freemasons, Catholic clergy, Protestant clergy, and members of Royal Families.

TRIGGER WARNING: This testimony contains depictions that are reminiscent of Satanic Ritual Abuse and may trigger survivors and disturb most people. Watch under your own responsibility.

Testimony of Toos Nijenhuis

Toos (from the family Nijenhuis) is a 54 year old Dutch lady who testifies that she was ritually raped, tortured & trafficked from age 4 to 12 by her parents, grandparents, family doctor, Freemasons, Catholic clergy, Protestant clergy, and members of Royal Families.

Toos described various acts of sexual abuse and torture, as well as being made to partake in human hunting games at castles all over Europe: Netherlands, Belgium, Switzerland, England, Wales and Scotland.

She witnessed children being killed. She was made to participate in cannibalism.

The list of perpetrator names given by Toos included high members of royalty & church — Prince Philip, Lord Moundbatten, Pope John Paul II, Cardinal Alfrink, Prince Bernhard, Menachem Mendel Schneerson,

If you know Jesus as your Lord and Saviour, please be brave and ask God to help you be vigilant and discerning so you do not succumb to the strong delusion.

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