“Fight, Flight, Freeze, Fawn, Feign, Flirt” — these are some of the ways recipients of abuse might respond to their abusers. In his post Separation from my body to escape suffering, Gary Pfeifer talks about this.
Here are the first two paragraphs of Gary’s post:
These days, self-integrity is really important to me. I will sacrifice comfort, convenience and opportunity to retain and regain my self-integrity. I understand the consequence of a divided mind – weighing me down with internal conflicts and the energy required to keep track of all the inconsistencies and when to allow or forbid each one.
As a child, i had no understanding of my self-integrity or its value. I was motivated by the experience of the moment. I cared about minimizing suffering and maximizing enjoyment. This meant mentally separating from my body to minimise the suffering of abuse. As the abuse included my head, i also separated from my head, my own face, and restricted my personal space to a small volume within my skull. I created an alternative reality in there to compensate for the loss of my connection to my physical reality. A place to hang out in my mind.
As a child, Phoenix was sexually abused, trafficked and subjected to ritual abuse and torture. He has reported this to the London Metropolitan Police and they have done nothing. He speaks with calmness and clarity about what was done to him, without going into really graphic detail. He exposes the hypocrisy of the British Establishment. I find his voice very easy to listen to. He is intelligent and incisive.
In these five videos he is talking with Aria, another survivor of abuse by the British Establishment. The banner image on their YouTube channel shows Phoenix and Aria; the girl whose face is half hidden is Phoenix’s sister.
Child Abuse at King’s House School, Richmond, London
Phoenix talks about his childhood abuse by King’s House School computer teacher, Alexander Anderson. Phoenix describes how Anderson would use a small attic space beside the computer room to isolate and sexually abuse children, often at weekends. At the time of this abuse, the school’s headmaster was Neville Chaplin. Chaplin was later charged with raping boys at another school he worked at.
A School Report: King’s House, Richmond, London
Phoenix takes a look back through school reports written by the teachers who abused him as a child. The reports reveal how the British education-system conditions young people from ‘elite’ families to become subservient to authority.
Abused at Scouts
Phoenix describes his experiences of being sexually abused as a child when attending cub scouts in London. Phoenix also describes the connections between the British Establishment and the Scouts, namely the covertly militaristic aspects of the organization. Specifically the ways in which those in the scouts are trained in similar ways to boy soldiers, being indoctrinated with: Saluting, uniforms, and ideas of supplication to late-20th-century folk-fantasy-figures like ‘God’ and the ‘Queen’.
The interview also covers news of the imminent collapse of the American Boy Scouts, on account of the volume of abuse survivors coming forward.
Sexually Abused by British Police
As a child, Phoenix was sexually abused by British Police officers. In this interview he describes one of his experiences of being sexually assaulted by representatives of the British Crown. He places his own experiences in the context of a society where children were routinely abused, and the police covered this up.
Phoenix also talks about how the police uniform uses Masonic symbolism.
How the British Establishment hide child abuse
Phoenix shows all the emails he has received from the British authorities from July 2018 to December 2019. These messages demonstrate exactly how the British Establishment ignore reports of child abuse and fish for information to discredit survivors.
The video also looks at the connections between Jimmy Savile, a network of ‘adventure’ camps (Outward Bound) and the British Royal Family.
As an adult, Phoenix reported to the British Police that as a child he was:
tortured and abused by many men
prostituted to many men
subjected to ritual abuse
witnessed the murder of a young girl Clare (or Claire) at an Outward Bound camp in Cumbria.
When Phoenix was a child, the Outward Bound organisation was under the directorship of Jimmy Savile and Prince Philip the Duke of Edinburgh was a patron of Outward Bound.
In the email exchange the London Metropolitan Police did not asked Phoenix one question about his report that a girl had been murdered.
Everyone who sought the Lord would go out to the tent of meeting, which was outside the camp. So let us go out to Him, outside the camp, bearing His reproach. Exodus 33:7b, Hebrews 13:13
The Mystery of Iniquity 